The truth about Karma

I saw a story on FB awhile back, posted by a woman who would leave food in the refrigerator at her workplace overnight, saving her leftovers for lunch the next day, only to come into work and find the food had been eaten. She suspected someone from the cleaning crew had been eating her leftovers. This went on for a few days; every time she saved leftovers for the next day they disappeared by the following morning. 

So, she decided to take matters into her own hands. She brought in ‘special’ leftovers: a sandwich made of canned dog food. She added a leaf of lettuce, a couple of tomato slices, cut the sandwich in half, placed it in a plastic bag, and then into the refrigerator it went. The next day, as expected, the sandwich was gone. After that occurrence, her food in the refrigerator was never taken again. 

In her post, as she was detailing these events, she was absolutely ecstatic that the lunch thief ‘got what they deserved’. She was convinced that this was a result of Karma…you know, you do something wrong at some point in your life so Karma catches up to you to punish you. 

Well, that’s not really the way that it works. Here’s the truth about Karma: 

  1. Karma is a two-way street. What you give out, positive or negative, does come back to you as all things in the Universe react to create a perfect balance. If you offer a kindness to someone, kindness comes back to you. If you offer hurt or negativity, hurt or negativity comes back to you. It’s all cyclical.  
  2. Emotions, not only actions, can cause reciprocal Karma. If someone gets hurt or suffers an unfortunate circumstance, and you laugh about it, thinking that Karma has come back to bite them in the ass, the truth is your reaction causes negative Karma for you. Think about that for a moment. So, in the case of this story, the woman’s gleeful reaction to someone eating her dog-food sandwich caused negative Karma for herself. 
  3. Karma is not meant to punish; Karma’s purpose is to teach. As I mentioned earlier in this article, every thought and action must have a counterpart to keep things balanced. In order to evolve spiritually we must learn lessons to foster our empathy, compassion, love, etc. If we, at some point for example, act as a persecutor toward someone else, we in turn will at some point be the persecuted. The purpose is for us to experience both sides of the coin in an effort to understand and learn empathy toward both the persecutor and the persecuted. 
  4. People cannot dole out Karma, only Universal energy keeps things in balance. So, if you think about doing something negative to someone in an effort to teach them a lesson in the name of ‘Karma’, guess again. You’ll only end up energetically hurting yourself. 

Karma is a cycle of cause and effect and involves a balance of energy. Whatever energetic intent (cause) you release through words, actions, thoughts or emotions, a balancing effect will be created in order to create a lesson. 

Photo by Holger Link on Unsplash

The true gift behind a gift

I have a friend who is wonderful at gift-giving. Within her close circle of family and friends, she remembers every birthday, anniversary, holiday, and even gives gifts in-between special events. She may be out shopping, sees something she thinks I would like, picks it up for me, and when I offer heart-felt thanks she quite nonchalantly gives me a dismissive wave of her hand, saying something like “oh, it’s no big deal…I just saw it and thought of you”.

My boyfriend Jim is also great at gift-giving, but he does it a little differently. I came home once from a business trip to find that he had surprised me by stringing Edison lights around my back porch and planted two little bushes in my empty ceramic planters. He always makes the bed on the nights he stays over (which is truly a gift as I often don’t make my bed in the mornings because it seems I’m always running late for work), and he notices little things in and around my home that may need to be repaired, and fixes things often without even being asked.

The definition of a gift, according to Merriam-Webster’s dictionary, is: something voluntarily transferred by one person to another without compensation. Okay, so that’s a dry definition of a gift as it speaks to the thing, or tangible item that is being given, but what about the thought, the energy, and the emotion behind the gift? Isn’t that what we should consider as the real gift?

I started thinking about this concept of recognizing what really is the “gift behind the gift” after a conversation with my friend Karla. Karla and I met at Starbucks one Sunday morning to sit outside for a catch-up and coffee, and she started telling me stories of her family. She told me about her mother-in-law, who lived in El Salvador, and how as a wedding present her mother-in-law gave her several pounds of fresh, ground coffee. I must have been dismissive in my response to Karla, because she pulled her sunglasses down to the bridge of her nose, looked me directly in the eye, and said, “You don’t understand, she made me the coffee. She knew how much I love coffee, so she actually grew the plants, harvested the beans, then dry-roasted and ground them for me in time to give it to me as a wedding present.” Okay, that was impressive. I remember thinking in awe about how much this woman must have loved Karla to go through all that planning and work in order to gift her with a few pounds of coffee. To me, it was truly a gift from the heart.

The story from Karla shifted my thinking. I started paying closer attention to the energy, thought, and love I was being given whenever I received a gift. What did that person go through, or plan, in order to present me with something nice? And I’m not just talking about purchased gifts. If someone invites me to their home for dinner, I think about what they go through from the moment the invitation is presented to the time of the event and even after the event. They first take the time to negotiate a mutually convenient day and time. Then, there’s energy, time and thought spent on figuring out what to serve for dinner, going to the grocery store and purchasing the items, maybe extra time spent on cleaning the house before my arrival, and setting out the appetizer, plates, utensils, etc. And, when I leave after dinner, there’s time and energy spent to clean the kitchen and load the dishwasher. The gift of being invited over for dinner was not limited to the wonderful meal I enjoyed…it was more the thoughtfulness, the planning, and the loving energy that went into creating the event.

Last February I had the misfortune of having and passing a kidney stone, and to make matters worse, I ended up sick for a week with infection. I was taking four different types of medicine a day to combat pain as well as the infection. My friend Kat, who is an herbalist, was concerned over the potential stress to my already-compromised kidneys by all the prescription medicine I was taking. She made two trips to my home on back-to-back days to bring me herbal supplements to help support the health of my kidneys. I was so sick she didn’t even stay to visit; she just handed me the supplements through my open door, wished me well, then got back into her car to head home.

You may be thinking at this point, “ok, what’s the big deal? She brought you herbal supplements. How is that a gift?” The gift that I received from Kat was her time, thoughtfulness, love and energy directed toward me during a time that I needed it. Kat lives in the next town over from me, and due to traffic, even on a good day, the drive is anywhere from thirty to forty minutes. And, Kat works a full-time job, roughly ten hours a day. So basically, on the two days she drove to my home to bring me the supplements, she first worked her ten-hour day, drove forty minutes to my house to drop off the herbal supplements, and turned right around and drove forty minutes back home. It’s not the supplements I was necessarily gifted with, it was her time, thoughtfulness, and energy.

Since my thinking has shifted and I’ve become more aware of the sometimes-hidden aspects of things that go into receiving a gift from someone, or being the recipient of their kindness, I’ve recognized that gifts are daily dropped in my path to discover. Most everything, if you really think about it, can be recognized as a gift. Recently, the person in front of me at the grocery store who had a cart full of items to be checked out noticed that I only had four items and offered me the place in line in front of them. That’s a gift. They took the time to recognize the difference in what we each were purchasing, and intentionally offered kindness to let me cut in front of the line.  

The next time someone presents you with a gift, or offers you help with something, or does something nice for you, think deeper into what you are receiving. Think about the time, planning, energy, love, thoughtfulness or even sacrifice that goes into what you are receiving. Notice how it magnifies in your awareness what you’ve received by ten or even by one hundred. Pretty awesome, right?

If we open our eyes and our hearts wide enough, it becomes easy to recognize every day more and more little gifts laid along our paths to discover. And the more we recognize these gifts, the more abundant and rich our lives become.

On Liberation & Solitude

There is oftentimes a very definitive moment in time, an exact moment of realization that I believe most of us have experienced, when we realize that things in our life are more fucked-up than we had originally thought. It’s as if all electrical currents in our brain come together at once to flash an internal warning with the sole purpose of providing split-second clarity with the message, “This is fucked up”. This moment of clarity can be both liberating and debilitating, simultaneously.

Liberation occurs when this exact moment of clarity serves to complete the puzzle we have been struggling with. We’ve known something was wrong for perhaps the longest time, whether in a relationship, a job, dealing with a drug addiction, or anything else that no longer serves us to our benefit, but we’ve ignored all the signals. We’ve pushed forward, hell-bent on trying different things, acting in different roles, doing whatever we could think of to try to make a situation work. We’ve looked so hard for the missing piece of the puzzle, whatever it would take to make the picture in our heads intact, whole. And finally, when we experience our moment of clarity, we realize there is no fixing the situation we are living in. What is left is only the knowledge of liberation; the permission we give ourselves to walk away from whatever it is that needs to be released.

The debilitating part comes in immediately after we’ve accepted our liberation. We fall to our knees, looking down the path toward a new direction, knowing the work and potential temporary hardship that is involved in claiming our new state of being, and wonder if we even have the energy to keep going.

I HAVE JUST RECENTLY, within a year of writing this, disembarked from a three-year journey of self-imposed solitude. Not the type of solitude that I’ve read about where monks at times will shut themselves off from the world, living in a cave or other type of shelter, devoid of worldly comforts, spending their time in constant meditation to reach Nirvana. And certainly not the type of solitude that comes from being shot up into space, living in a tin can, for months or years at a time for the benefit and understanding of science. My self-imposed solitude was one where I was required to still live in this world, the physical world, for monetary and responsibility reasons, but I needed time and space to reach inward, inside myself, to figure things out.

I had reached a point, at fifty years old, where I didn’t even know who I was. While I was packing my youngest child, Sara, off to college, I was also going through my second divorce. And so for the first time in decades I was truly alone. No children at home to take care of, no man at home to consider, it was me and only me. Me, myself, and I. And I felt lost. Lost, unprepared, scared, angry, hurt, hopeless, and confused. I felt myself spinning in circles, not knowing what I was supposed to do next. It’s funny how when we spend our entire lives taking care of other people we forget how to take care of ourselves. We forget what our dreams are, we have no idea what our true life purpose is, and we lose a level of creativity that is screaming to be discovered again. I do remember understanding that I now had a blank, clean slate in front of me. I had an open white canvas that I could paint any color I wanted. The trouble was, I didn’t know what colors to choose. I had lost myself so deeply that I couldn’t even articulate what I wanted for my life going forward. I simultaneously felt all the world’s chaos as well as my own extreme inner emptiness.

Automatic pilot, robotic thinking.

I needed time and space to analyze myself, to figure out who I was as an individual, as a woman, as a human being, and as a soul. I wanted so badly to understand what decisions and actions I had taken over the course of my lifetime to bring me to where I was at that very moment in time, what outdated patterns and beliefs I needed to release, and most certainly I needed an understanding of what I wanted my life to look like going forward.

I didn’t start out on my journey of solitude with a preconceived time-frame in mind, it would take as long as it took and not a minute less or more. I was tired physically, emotionally and most certainly spiritually, so I made the decision and the commitment to take the time I needed, and to be brutally honest with myself and leave no stone uncovered in my quest to understand me. And, having just finalized the divorce of my second marriage, I wholeheartedly made the decision to not date or otherwise engage with anyone romantically during this period of discovery.

Looking back now, I can tell you that my process of ‘finding myself’ took close to three years. And during that time, I chose to walk alone along my path in life. I don’t want to give the impression that I truly became a hermit (almost, but my friend Gina may tell you otherwise) because I didn’t totally check out of life. I worked full-time at my job, I built a house, I spent time with my children, select friends, and grandchildren, and I flew to Europe approximately eighteen times during those three years.

You’re probably questioning my definition of solitude after reading my last paragraph, and I understand how it may sound absurd to say that I lived in solitude but yet worked, traveled and spent time with family and friends.  But in all fairness, I think it’s safe to say that the term ‘solitude’ can have a variety of meanings and it all boils down to what degree of solitude we each want to incorporate into our life. For me, it was finding the balance of having to live responsibly in the world outside myself while taking the time I needed to heal myself from within. Spending time alone, preferring time alone actually, was needed to find the essence of myself which I had lost most likely decades ago, and choosing to not incorporate a partner or love interest in my life was necessary in order to eliminate any external distraction that would potentially sway me from my course, or continue in my blindness of allowing someone else’s will or other external influence to dictate who I am, or how I should behave, or what I should sacrifice. I knew I was no longer willing to compromise myself, but at the time I wasn’t sure what that meant or how to become who I really was supposed to be. My answer was to spend as much time alone as possible and to feel what I needed to feel, let my thoughts run rampant as much as necessary until they started to form their own structured order, and to simply become an observer of myself and others. In essence, I wanted to become a student again. A student of life, and more importantly, a student of myself.

I had a burning and insatiable desire to fully understand myself. I know that we’re each responsible to create the life we want through our thoughts, intent and actions. What was my responsibility in where I was at this particular time in my life? What life patterns did I continuously repeat and why? Why did I always end up in abusive relationships? What life lessons was I supposed to be learning, and most importantly, what was I missing? What outdated belief systems did I need to release because they no longer supported my highest good? What am I truly supposed to be doing with my life? I had no answers to my questions, only the internal knowing that I needed to embark on a personal journey to figure things out. I did understand that at times it would be painful, and that there would not be any quick fixes. No magic pills, no genie in a bottle that would magically present me with a new life and a new way of thinking. It was a process, and a road I had to walk alone. In order to grow into who I was supposed to be, in order to create a new, different, and fulfilling life for myself, I had to spend time picking myself apart, analyzing everything, and leaving no stone uncovered before I could put my pieces back together again.

I chose liberation…liberation from myself and for myself. And in doing so, I walked the gauntlet. You know the gauntlet I’m talking about; it’s when we see the invisible line in front of us, knowing that once we step over it, we can never turn back. We can sense the shit storm that’s piling up on either side of us, the shit storm we must walk through in order to reach the clearing on the other side. So, we take a deep breath, gaze at the clearing on the far side, not really knowing what’s waiting for us but hoping like hell it’s better than where we’re coming from, square our shoulders, straighten our spine, and take our first steps into the unknown.

Getting sucked in…(don’t)

There’s a fine line between caring about someone, trying to help them, and getting sucked into their life, their energy, and their drama. I use the term ‘getting sucked into’ quite literally, because it’s different than getting ‘drawn’ into something or someone.

When we’re drawn to something or someone, it usually means there is something about the situation or person that attracts us, or that peaks our curiosity or interest.  We meet someone who exudes positive energy and has a boatload of charisma, and we’re naturally drawn to that person because it just simply feels good to be around them. Or, we hear of a situation or opportunity that peaks our interest and we’re drawn to find out more information. We may be drawn to use our creative talents to paint, write, or sew while others are drawn to nature and spend their time hiking or camping and enjoying the outdoors. We can also be drawn to be of service to others by volunteering or helping people in need in countless other ways.

The important thing to remember about being drawn to something is that when that happens, we retain our individual power. We keep our energy clear and intact.

When we get sucked into something or someone, it’s like being lost in a black hole or a spinning cyclone of chaos. We’ve been sucked into a vortex. And in this state, we lose our power. We lose our power because at the same time it’s being taken from us, we let it willingly slip from our fingers. We lose our energy because it’s literally being sucked from us.

The most common example I can offer is when we’re sucked in by other people. We all have that one friend or family member that seems to always need rescuing. They can’t function on their own, and rely on others to continuously provide direction and a constant source of energy. A.k.a. energy vampires. They literally have the ability to suck the life right out of us. And it doesn’t matter how much advice we offer, they disregard anything and everything we say yet continuously come back to us for more advice. They’ve put themselves into the role of a helpless victim, and blame everything and everyone around them for their situation, yet take no accountability for their own actions that have led them to the very point in their life that is so full of drama. They never apologize, never acknowledge the needs and feelings of others, and never give back to the people who have given them so much in return.

So how do we know when we’ve been sucked into another person’s black hole, or spinning cyclone of chaos? It’s simple: we know by the way we feel. And unfortunately, in these situations, the feeling doesn’t just hit us smack-dab in the face. In truth, it slowly creeps up on us until finally, one day, we wake up and realize that we don’t feel so good. Our energy levels are low, we may have mild depression, and we just feel bad physically, emotionally, and spiritually. We avoid phone calls or contact with this particular person, and our patience and gentle demeanor toward this individual has evaporated into thin air. We feel as if we want to escape. We can no longer stand to be in close proximity to this person.

When we reach the point where we can recognize that we’ve been sucked in, it’s time to take our power back and care for ourself. Sometimes the answer is to remove this person from our life, however, if we’re caught in the vortex of a co-worker or family member, it’s not always easy or appropriate to cut off contact. What we can do, however, is set healthy boundaries. We can set limits of contact and limits of behavior we’re willing to accept. Instead of accepting five phone calls a day from that family member who needs our constant advice (that’s never taken), we can promise ourself that we’ll only accept one phone call a day from this individual. We can use the Do Not Disturb feature on our phone, or set their individual ring tone to silent so we don’t hear the phone ring when they call. We can set limits for ourself of what we’re willing to do for this person, how much money that we’re willing to give, or even whether or not we’ll continue to give advice. We can sit down with a glass of wine, self-reflect, and actually write out what our boundaries are and how we will communicate them and reinforce them. In essence, we create a written contract with ourself.

And in these situations, what we always need to remember is this: We are not responsible for anyone but ourself. We are not responsible for other people’s actions, ideas, words, mistakes, or beliefs. We are not responsible for the consequences of other people’s actions.

Negative Effects of ‘Teaching a Lesson’

Last week I was having lunch in a restaurant close to my office, and I overheard the conversation of four women who were seated at the table next to me. A woman at the table was complaining about an unknown individual; evidently this unfortunate person crossed some type of boundary or failed in some type of action. I don’t know what the situation was, but I heard the woman at the table say, “I’m going to give her a dose of her own medicine”, meaning of course, that she was going to mimic the undesirable behavior in order to, in her mind, either teach the other person a lesson or try to change the other person’s behavior.

 I cringed when I heard this, as I could picture the cycle of negative energy and intent that would be passed back and forth between those two. Nothing about that cycle would teach or heal anything. It would actually cause more harm than good.

Having negative intent or using negative action creates a negative energy vibration which doesn’t “teach” or heal anything. It’s merely an attempt to exert our will over someone else. It becomes a matter of force…it’s an attempt to forcibly change someone else’s behavior. Nothing positive comes from this and nothing is gained other than the continuation of a negative cycle.

This is even more true when withholding is part of the action. For example, saying to ourselves, “I’m not giving this or that to this person in order to teach them a lesson”. Whenever we consciously and deliberately withhold from someone in order to punish, whether it’s our time, our attention, money, support, or whatever it is…we’re creating an intent to harm, and this negative intent will only serve to hurt us energetically in the long run.

We cannot cause harm to another without causing harm to ourselves. It’s all a matter of shared energetic vibration.

What we can do when we’re unhappy with someone’s actions or behavior is to set healthy boundaries. And in doing so, the energy of the event changes. We can say “I honor the space where you are, and I empathize with you, but my boundary is xyz”. When this occurs, the energy shifts away from being negative and instead creates a positive energetic vibration. No more cross contamination of negative energy.

By setting boundaries, the other person may or may not learn from the experience, but that’s not our responsibility. We’re each responsible for ourselves, our own individual path, and what we create for ourselves from each experience. Let others be responsible for themselves.

The Shouting Beggar Man

Once, when I was in Basel, Switzerland on business, I was sitting outside at a little café located in front of the Hotel Victoria and across the street from the Basel train station drinking a cappuccino. It was a warm, sunny Saturday afternoon, and the streets were filled with people rushing about conducting their afternoon shopping. What I like most about Basel, and Switzerland in particular, is that it’s rich in cultural diversity. There are always people milling around from every country and cultural background imaginable, and the air is perpetually filled with the music of multiple different languages being spoken.

            This little café happens to be situated at a perfect point between the train station and the central trams, so it’s a wonderful place to sit back, relax, and people-watch. Lovers stroll by holding hands, women rush by, pushing their children’s strollers at a half-walk / half-run pace attempting to catch the Number 10 tram before the doors close, taxi drivers stand next to their cars, smoking a cigarette, and wait for their next fare. There are businessmen in suits carrying their briefcases, and elderly people shuffling along with the help of a cane or a walker. Teenage girls saunter by in groups of three or more, whispering to each other in conspiratorial tones, and the obvious tourists move about in dream-like states, taking pictures and sometimes slowly spinning in complete circles as they take in their surroundings.  

The entrance of the train station is normally always full of activity, with people entering and leaving the main doors, reminding me of bees in a hive. Some struggle to manage large suitcases, if they happen to be leaving on or returning from a trip, and others are entering the train station only to purchase a deli sandwich from the Migros counter.

Outside the train station and along the front of the building are a series of stone benches, where often the homeless and various other individuals who are less than fortunate congregate, sometimes alone but more often in small groups. There are men who sit together, smoking cigarettes and drinking from bottles wrapped in paper bags, and others who sit alone on the ground with their worldly belongings, contained in duffel bags, arranged around them in a protective circle.

On this particular day I noticed a rather tall man pacing back and forth, talking to himself, and ignoring the occupants of the benches. He wasn’t entirely unkempt; his clothes appeared worn yet clean, and he could have used a haircut, but from my view point from the café he didn’t appear homeless. I watched as an elderly woman walked by him, and he immediately stopped his pacing and started walking next to her, keeping stride, while turning his head to face her, talking to her. She ignored him, kept her gaze straight ahead, and kept on walking. He stayed with her, his voice getting louder and louder to the point he was almost shouting at her, until she stopped, opened her purse, and handed him money.

I understood at that point that he was begging for money, and his tactic was to keep getting louder and louder until the elderly woman finally caved and gave him money. Once she gave him money, he immediately was silent and turned around and walked away in the opposite direction. I watched with fascination as he did it again and again, targeting women but not men, and each time his ‘victim’ finally gave in once it seemed that they had reached the breaking point of embarrassment for how loudly he was drawing attention to them and the situation. So basically, they paid him to shut up and leave them alone. He had a brilliant tactic to get what he wanted.

Later that evening, after dinner and when I was back in my hotel room, I thought again about the shouting beggar man and his infallible tactics. Curiously, I couldn’t get him off my mind, and because I know that the Universe often illustrates lessons or messages for us in various forms, including situations that we may witness, I tried to go a little deeper with my line of thinking about the beggar man and the message I could ascertain from the scene he caused earlier in the day. And then it dawned on me; how many times have I given into something that I wasn’t comfortable with in an effort to placate someone or something else? Who in my life, past or present, represents the shouting beggar man? Who has walked beside me, slowly turning up the heat of manipulation in an effort to get me to do something or give something away, whether it was money, sex, my time, or my participation in an activity that I really didn’t want to give away or engage in, but I didn’t want to appear unkind or uncooperative. In what life situations did I give a piece of myself away in order to stop the pressure I was receiving from that particular person? And, how did I feel after I gave a precious piece of myself away? Did I feel fulfilled and satisfied, or did I feel anxious and worried, knowing deep down inside that I really wasn’t comfortable with the whole situation, but I simply brushed those feelings under the proverbial rug and made excuses for myself and the other person?

Several weeks later I was talking on the phone with my friend Susan, telling her about the shouting beggar man and his tactics I had witnessed. After patiently listening until I finished my story, she asked, “What would have happened if one of those women would have faced him directly and shouted ‘Stop!’?” I had to think about that for a moment. Perhaps he would have been shocked at the confrontation, turned around and walked away. Or maybe it would have escalated the situation, I’m not sure. But it got me thinking about my participation in situations like this, and if I really want to make positive changes in my life, I need to be mindful about taking care of myself, stop giving pieces of myself away, and start creating healthy boundaries. But where to start?

My friend Laurie has a direct, no-nonsense approach for boundaries. For her, things fall into one of two categories: Hell Yes or No. If she’s asked to give something or to participate in something, and she can’t answer with a resounding “Hell Yes!”, then for her the answer must be “No”. I like it. It’s simple, direct, and it’s an easy way for her to honor her feelings and reinforce her boundaries.

After thinking about Laurie’s fool-proof way of protecting her time, her energy and her interests, I decided to adopt this approach. My life lesson is this: I’ll no longer let anyone or any situation coerce me into doing something or giving something that makes me feel uncomfortable in any way. If I can’t answer or commit with a resounding ‘Hell Yes!’, then the answer has to be ‘No’. My promise to myself is that I too will honor my feelings, and my boundaries. I’ll better protect my time, my interests, and my energy simply by saying ‘No’ to things that don’t feel right to me.

Moving out of the Void

Yesterday I was having a discussion with a group of colleagues, there were five of us in total, huddled together around a small table, and we were discussing aspects of transformation, moving toward goals, and ways to create what we want in our lives. One woman in our group summed it up very simply: “Work with what you get. It doesn’t mean you have to agree with it, just keep moving forward. You have to keep your [energy] flow moving.”

I thought about her statement during my drive home. I thought about how sometimes, when we’re on this path called Life, things happen that can cause us to become paralyzed in moving forward. Unexpected circumstances, events or situations that cause us to trip and falter. Life events that attempt to stop us dead in our tracks, or completely annihilate our vision of how we planned our life to turn out. Things that attempt to destroy our inner vision of how we look at ourselves.

How often, when unexpected circumstances present themselves, do we dig in our heels and refuse to move forward? How often do we refuse to ‘go with the flow’, and deal with problems and issues as they arise, refusing to accept what has happened, refusing to work with it, deal with it, and ultimately, overcome the challenge in order to move forward? Refusing to accept the situation or circumstance inhibits us from working through the challenge, and ultimately shuts down our flow of energy, which in the end means lack of opportunity as no new doors open for us.

I know a woman who recently lost everything in a divorce. She spent six years fighting for her share of marital assets. She used all of her financial resources for legal fees, and in the end she lost everything. Her husband of seventeen years came out on top. He controlled the finances, he controlled the businesses, and ultimately it came down to who had more money to continue the legal battle. So she lost, and is now left with broken pieces to try to put back together. She moved out of her beautiful, expensive home that she dearly loved, and into a small condo owned by her children, rent free.

The sad part is that she is refusing to move forward. She refuses to unpack anything in the condo, and she cannot for the life of her accept these circumstances. She’s paralyzed from moving forward, and spends her time reading and rereading the stacks of legal papers that she has accumulated over the last six years. Her stress levels are through the roof and are wreaking havoc on her physical, mental and emotional health. She’s refusing to let go and move forward. As a result, she is stuck in a void. No creation of life can happen in this void as there is no energy flow to support it.

If she could keep moving forward by unpacking and making the condo her home, even if she chose to think of it as temporary home, she would start a flow of positive energy. If she were able to let go, and stop dwelling on the past and attempt to seek opportunity to move forward, her energy flow would increase and doors would open…doors of opportunity for the future. It is true that life as she knew it has changed, but the opportunity to create a new, different life is available to her if she can move out of the void by taking steps to move forward.

I go back to the statement from my colleague. Work with what you get. It may not be what you wanted, but use it as a stepping stone. You may have been re-directed off what you thought was your path, but there are new paths ahead…a new way of moving forward into a new future. Keep moving forward.

Be willing to let go

Personal change is a process, and in order for you to transform into the person that you are truly meant to be, you need to be willing to let go of things that no longer serve your higher purpose or your greater good. I realize that you’re probably cringing at this point, maybe thinking to yourself that you’ve already been through so much, or have already lost so much, so why in the hell should you have to give up even more? The answer is simple: in order for you to become who you are meant to be, you have to shed what no longer works in your life and what no longer fits. You need to shed the outer skin of who you used to be in order for the real you to come through.

So, you ask, what does this mean for me?  Well, it means different things for different people but could include a variety of things such as eliminating negative self-talk, letting go of self-imposed labels, stop beating on doors that aren’t meant to be opened to you, cutting out junk food, alcohol, or maybe even friends that aren’t good for you, quitting smoking, or leaving a job that’s causing you to die on the inside a little bit every day. You have to figure out what this means for you and take steps to release these negative influences.

This is a process as well. I’m not saying that I want you to make a list of everything that seems negative right now and within twenty-four hours eliminate these things from your life. What I’m saying is that as you go through your evolutionary process of healing and rebuilding your life, you will feel, in your heart, what feels good and what doesn’t feel good. Pay attention to what brings you down and what elevates your spirit.

If you love fast food but feel comatose after eating it, chances are that’s your body telling you that it needs food that is healthier. If you’re out with friends who love to drink and party until the sun comes up, and you feel disengaged and out of place, that’s your spirit telling you that you’ve outgrown that type of behavior. Just pay attention to your intuition and follow your heart.

One thing that I do every night as I go to bed is to say a little prayer that goes like this: Dear God, please help me identify the things in my life that no longer serve my higher purpose, and please help me gracefully let go of these things. Amen. You can create your own mantra like this, and it could be directed to the Universe, or to your Guardian Angels, or to whatever higher power you believe in. The point is, recognize what’s not working for you, and be willing to let it go.

There are no quick fixes

I want you to understand that there are no quick fixes. There is no magic pill, or magic book, or magic anything that can change your current circumstances. Personal change is a process, a state of evolving, that requires you to start with first steps. The process includes: opening your mind and your heart, setting a goal, developing a plan and tweaking it regularly, looking for opportunities, and continuing to move forward despite any setbacks that may occur.

In order for change to happen you are required to participate fully. You are required to go through your own process, and it will most likely be a mixture of active and passive participation. There will be some days you take five giant steps forward, and other days where you take two giant steps backwards. That’s okay and it’s all part of the process. Be patient and believe that you can do this! In some situations, you may have to sit back and watch how things unfold before you take any type of action. It’s all part of the process.

Practicing Gratitude

When my children were little, they loved blackberries (they still do!). Whenever they accompanied me to the grocery store, the very minute they saw blackberries in the fruit section, they would each immediately grab a container for themselves. Blackberries are expensive, especially for me at that time as I was a single mother supporting two children, and I had to carefully watch my money. Inwardly I would cringe as I watched them dash over to the display counter to each grab a pack. $4.99 for a single-layer package of blackberries the size of a postage stamp. Multiply that by two, and I had a quick $10.00 added to my grocery bill.

When we were finished shopping, and had made our way home, the first thing I would do was to take the blackberries out of the shopping bags, wash them, and give them to the girls as a snack while I finished unpacking all the groceries and putting everything away. I watched them as they sat at the kitchen table, devouring their blackberries, with a look of pure heaven on their little faces. A certain feeling would take hold in my heart, and start expanding throughout my inner core. Was it satisfaction at seeing how happy they were? Was it pride, in the fact that I was able to buy the blackberries for them? I could never quite figure out the correct label to attach to the emotion I was feeling in my heart while watching their simple happiness over the blackberries. Looking back, I know now that my heart was filled with gratitude. I was grateful for their happiness.

The definition of gratitude is simple. Gratitude is a quality…a quality of being thankful and the readiness to show appreciation and to return kindness. If you’re currently going through a challenging time, you may be thinking to yourself, “Seriously? My life has just been turned upside down, so what exactly do I have to feel grateful for?” Well, we’ll get to that. Let me first tell you why practicing gratitude is so important….

Practicing gratitude is important because it helps us shift our thinking. Gratitude helps us stop thinking about everything that is going wrong in our life and helps us recognize the things that are going right. Gratitude gives us hope. Gratitude helps us see the beauty that is all around us. And the funny thing is, the more we express gratitude, the more positive our lives become. There are so many studies available for review that actually prove that expressing daily gratitude positively affects our physical, emotional, mental, and social health. If you don’t believe me, go to Google and type this in the search bar: why is gratitude important? Your search will return pages and pages of wonderful articles and studies listing all the life-changing benefits of practicing gratitude. Read them.

You may be going through a rough time right now, and it can be difficult to keep up a positive attitude. Believe me, I know…I’ve been there. I know it’s hard to look at the bright side when you’ve been through so many changes, changes you may not have asked for, and you’re on your hands and knees crawling toward the light at the end of the tunnel and hoping that the light you see isn’t an oncoming train. I also know that when you’re in that type of fog, it’s hard to see anything positive at the moment let alone practice gratitude. So let’s start small.  Grab your journal, and make a list of the most basic things that are good in your life right now that you can feel grateful for. Your list might look like this:

I am grateful that:

  • I have a great job that I enjoy
  • My children are beautiful, healthy, and doing well
  • I have beautiful, healthy grandchildren
  • I am healthy
  • I have a warm and safe home
  • I have a car
  • I have food in my refrigerator
  • I have an intelligent and creative mind
  • I have great friends that care about me
  • I can see, hear, and walk
  • I have wonderful opportunities ahead of me

And at the bottom of your list, write these words: Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

Take a moment and look at your list. Really let it soak in. This first list is a great start in practicing gratitude. Every day, in your journal, write down at least one thing you are thankful for, and always add ‘Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!’ at the end. If you’re having a bad day, go back and re-read your lists to remind you of everything in your life that is going well. If you practice this exercise every day, in a short amount of time you’ll start recognizing little gifts and blessings that cross your daily path, and you will start feeling gratitude on a daily basis, which in turn will keep your thoughts and your general attitude at a higher, positive frequency.

Whenever I do receive little gifts or blessings from the Universe, I make it a habit to acknowledge them with gratitude. I’ve been doing it for so long that it this point, it’s become second nature. As an example, at the company where I work, finding a parking space close to the building is truly a gift. If I don’t arrive at work before 7:45 AM, all the parking spaces have been taken and I have to park in the parking garage. It’s a fair distance from the building, and while I don’t mind walking during the summer when the weather is nice, I really don’t like walking to the building when it’s freezing cold, or snowing, or in heavy rains. I tell myself, while driving into work, that I WILL find a parking space close to the building, and nine times out of ten, I actually do! I feel like the open parking space has been waiting for me, and as I pull in, I say out loud “Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!” It may seem silly, but it works for me as I am expressing gratitude over this simple gift I have just received, and I’m opening the door to receive more gifts!

I express gratitude over everything that goes well or when an unexpected gift lands in my lap. If I receive an unexpected refund in the mail, I express gratitude. Or, when one of my children, who are busy living their own lives, call me out of the blue just to chat or check in, I silently express gratitude that they thought of me during their busy day. The point is, when you get into the habit of being grateful even for the smallest of things, more good things happen to feel grateful for.

I also express gratitude when I’m out in nature, walking through the woods and enjoying a beautiful day. I do this through appreciation of my surroundings. I breathe in the air and smell the wonderful mixture of wood, green and earth. I see how the sun shines through the trees and notice how the light filters through the leaves and casts shadows along the path where I’m walking. I stand still and watch the squirrels play and chase each other, and notice how each tree is formed differently. This fills me with peace, and the beauty of my surroundings makes me feel grateful.

Because I have so many things to be grateful for, I enjoy returning kindness, even to strangers. Many times while I’m in the drive-up lane at Starbucks, I’ll pay for the person behind me. It makes me feel good to know that when they drive up to the cashier, they’ll be surprised to find out their coffee has been paid for. If I see an elderly person struggle to reach something on the top shelf at the grocery store, I ask if I can help get an item down for them. I do this because this is my way of trying to be a blessing in someone else’s life, and maybe make their day a little better.

Expressing gratitude begins as a conscious daily effort, but over time becomes second nature as you develop your own personal practice of gratitude.